“Speechless”

I am simply speechless!

So many of you wished me a happy birthday yesterday — 234 well-wishes through Facebook timelines and private messages. I’m so grateful!

I am simply bowled over with how many of you that I have never met in person extended the warmest wishes and we only started connecting through my “Peace, Grace, Love and Namasgar” posts over the past six months.

I am so moved!

So here goes…I’m not this invisible social/spiritual warrior after all. I am like all human beings with emotions, the paradoxes, the inconsistencies and the mood swings…

Anger and joy and peace and sadness and happiness and loneliness and disappointments and setback and comfort and success and happiness and emotional pain. We experience all of it. And most of all, we live to experience the love!

Mental illness is a disease that is very difficult to cure. Bipolar Disorder is a mental illness and I’m coming out here for the first time to share that I have had Bipolar Disorder for over thirty years.

It wreaked havoc on my life and my loved ones, as it does yearly for 6 million people and their families. That’s 3 percent of the United States population.

I actually believe those numbers to be grossly understated with the majority of cases going undiagnosed because of any number of factors — fear, embarrassment, societal pressures, lack of health insurance, job security, the list goes on…

So the tough news is that I have been embroiled in a rather bitter and very expensive (I ran two companies worth $100 million annually) divorce for almost two years now. It has caused me grief, loneliness, despair and bank account depletion on BOTH sides at the hands of greedy, power-hungry, disingenuous, egocentric, and predatory lawyers fattening their bank accounts in the name of what? Oh, who the hell knows. Justice? Fairness? Pssshhh.

The good news is that after thirty years of serious depression, potential loss of my life, making millions of dollars and the loss of my family, my business and much more… I am finally free!!

I am finally cured of my bipolar illness!

Because I believe as many as 50 million people in the United States (men, women and children) are afflicted with this disease, I want to share the symptoms and tell-tell signs. I know because I was there:

  • Drinking too much alcohol, more than one drink per week.
  • Doing illegal drugs like crystal meth, ecstasy, cocaine and heroin.
  • Smoking weed every day because it’s “medicinal” and has calming effects.
  • Taking prescription drugs for depression, anxiety, sleeplessness, blood pressure or cholesterol.
  • Unhappy at work.
  • Unhappy with marriage or relationship
  • A general melancholy mood persists.
  • A depressive personality.
  • Not smiling at least 50 percent of the time.
  • Not laughing at least once a day.
  • A loss of interest in the things that used to bring joy like sports, hobbies, reading, writing, exercising and socializing.

And last, but surely not least, do you know someone who is so full of himself that he talks and walks around like their sh*t don’t stink? YES! That’s an obvious tell of a manic-depressive.

Adolf Hitler, Ivan the Terrible, Josef Stalin, Mao, Pasha — all of these horrific leaders were manic-depressives and most in a position of political power afflicted with bipolar spells death and destruction. History doesn’t lie! These manic-depressives above were responsible for the deaths of more than 80 million harmless, defenseless, peace-loving men, women and children.

This terrible bipolar illness MUST be addressed on both a personal and larger level to preserve the potential for all of our brothers and sisters across the world!

Peace, Love, Grace, and Namasgar,

-Gar